I keep going back to relive this
moment in my head
it’s four in the morning
and we’re lying in my bed
we’re face to face
your hands are up and down my back
and you’re telling me
you dont want to get too attached.
I keep going back to relive this
moment in my head
it’s four in the morning
and we’re lying in my bed
we’re face to face
your hands are up and down my back
and you’re telling me
you dont want to get too attached.
It took some time,
It caused some pain,
But I now know why you were in my life,
And why I’ll never be the same,
Honestly, I was hoping it would last,
That this would be the one,
But that’s not how it’s meant to be,
You’re just a lesson to learn from,
See life gave me something so wonderful,
And then quickly took it away,
To teach me that nothing is permanent,
And not everyone can stay,
Because I spent a while thinking,
That I must not be enough,
Not enough for you or for anyone,
And that I may as well give up,
But the thing that I’ve learnt,
Is that’s not how it should be,
It doesn’t matter if I’m not enough for you,
Because i’m perfectly happy with me,
So now I’ll live in the moment,
Treasure every memory that I make,
You’ve taught me it’s okay to be delicate,
And that it’s okay to break,
Now I’m heading on my way,
Into a life I never thought I’d lead,
So thank you for making me stronger,
And creating a better version of me,
In the end i’m really thankful,
For you and the part that you played,
But deep down I’ll always wish,
That you were the one that stayed.
She was air because she floated
And danced with every step
She believed in fairytales and wonderland
Her naivety was all she had left.
He was air because he wandered
Never having a home
He liked to float from place to place
Never committing and being alone.
She was delicate and grace
He was edgy and tough
Together they created a masterpiece
That was either too much or not enough.
The idea of them was beautiful
But the execution was poor
He loved her but not commitment
And all she wanted was even more.
I’ve given you too much,
Let you see too much of me,
Because now when I watch you walk away,
You make it hard for me to breath,
I should have played it cool,
Should have been more nonchalant,
Because every time you summon me,
I’ll give you anything you want,
I feel like I know nothing of you,
But I let you see the inside of me,
This is a common occurrence of my past,
You leave me dying and walk away scot-free.
Hard to date
Easy to love
The poisonous concoction
That had me wrapped up
Hard to catch
Easy to find
You didn’t tell me this
When you left me behind
Hard to understand
Easy to know
You had me wrapped round your finger
And wouldn’t let go
Hard to date
Harder to forget
I’m praying for the day
You ask me to come back
I left a piece of me at your house
The night I gave you all of me
And I know we haven’t spoken in a while
But I would like it back please
Because I’m leaving soon
I’m going far away
And so I can’t let that piece of me
Be the part of me that stays
Maybe you could send it back
I want to make myself whole again
I liked that you were keeping me around
But it will only hurt me in the end
You can’t say you saved me
When you’re the one who shot me down
You pulled the trigger
And was no where to be found
You’re saying you sacrificed us
To save me getting hurt
But really all you did
Was watch me getting burnt
I won’t thank you for protecting me
When I know in my heart
That you set off the bomb
That blew us both apart
It 2am
You’re walking me home
There’s frost on the cars
There’s frost across the road
I can see your breath
You can see my heart
Your eyes are staring into me
As if to look away you would fall apart
There’s one last kiss
Before I leave
And maybe your bed sheets
Smell like me